Amar Boisko Maa er Chodon Lila - অধ্যায় ৪১

Porer din shokal'e ghum theke uthte ektu deri hoye gache, ghum theke uthe dekhi prai 9:30am. Ami taratari fresh hoye, niche giye, breakfast banate shuru korlam, I can cook anything vegan, ami bhaloi ranna korte pari, bhalo lage, majhe majhe barite ami ranna kori. Jai hok, poha ta gorom jole bhijiye, shob vegetables gulo chop kore, parboil kore, tarpor olive oil'e halka kore stir fry kore, bhejano poha ta pan'e diye, olpo ektu masala add kore, nere nilam, ar tarpor ektu Mother Diary'r curd niye dinning table'e niye boshe kheye nilam. Tarpor ektu porei, dekhlam calling bell bajlo. Main door ta khule dekhlam ekjon lok esheche, ekta cycle niye, ar ekta lungi pore, Mukhe ekta gamcha bandha. Amake bollo, "Babu, ami kaal bhi eshechilam, Maa ji bolechilo, purana akhbar acha onek, niye jete. Kaal tala bandh tha ghar me, ami chole gelam". Amar mone pore gelo, Maa amake bolechilo, ar goto kaal to ami chilam na, tai lokta eshe fire geche. Ami bollam, "chacha, aapni ektu wait korun, ami bosta ta anchi", bole store room'e giye dekhlam, Maa duto bosta bendhe rekhe gache. Ami ekta ekta kore bar korlam, besh bhari bosta gulo, ar Main door er samne niye gelam. Tarpor oi chacha ke bollam weight kore niye jete. Chacha bollo, "ami batkara ani nahi aaj, wajan se lagche, 20-25kg hobei Babu. Magar ekhon lockdown'er ager rate nahi de paunga, thora kaam hobe, ami Maa ji ke bole chilam. Uni to le jane ko boli", ami ar kotha baralam na. Karon lockdown'e prochur loker kaaj chole gache, ar old newspaper'er beshi taka niye ki korbo. Ami bollam, "aapni niye jaan chacha, taka lagbe na, ami Maa ke bole debo aapni taka diye diyechen. Aapna ke aaj kono taka dite hobe na, ar ektu daran, ami aschi", bole amar room'e doure gelam upore, giye amar table'er upor besh kichu cash taka chilo, sekhan theke Rs. 500 niye ashlam[ami wallet use kori na, tai cash taka pocket'ei dhukiye beriye jai, ar bari ashle abar ekhanei shob cash taka ekhane rakha thake amar bike'er chabi'r shate], ar niche chacha ke dite giye dekhi, chacha ekta newpaper'er bosta khule Main door'er samne ek bundle newspaper alada kore rekhe bosta'r bhitor haath dhukiye aro newspaper bar korche moneholo. Ami niche eshe onake taka ta diye bollam, "Chacha, ei taka ta rakho, lockdown'e to serokom kichu bikri hoi ni kichui. Ete tomar olpo kichu kaaj hoye jabe hoito. Tumi shob newpaper bar korcho keno, Maa to bhalo kore boshta bendhe rekhe gechilo", Uni taka ta na niyei amake bollo, "Babu, ami 6 mahina pehle ekbar eshechilam, tokhon Maa ji ei rokom du ta boshta paper'er dilo, taka bhi nilo na, magar bari giye dekhlam, paper to olpo chilo, baki to pura kitab bhora chilo. Ami pore eshechilam wapas korte, Maa ji bollo kitab gulo lagbe na. Age bhi ekbar Boro Babu'r[amar Baba] dehant'er pore ami eshechilam, tab to Maa ji 6 bori bhar ke kagaj diyechilo aur paisa bhi nai ni, tab bhi paper kam, kitab bhara para tha usme. Eto kitab Maa ji diye dan bar bar, ami paralikha jani na, par itna pata hai ki Saraswati bechte nahi, Aaj keo kitab hai isme, dekho Babu, aapni dekhe nen, aapko bhi agar chai na, tab mei le ke jaunga". Ami bujhte parlam na, Baba mara jaowwar por, Maa 6 boshta kagoj bikri korechilo, ar 6 mash ageo 2 boshta kagoj bikri koreche, kintu tate kagoj kom khata boi beshi chilo. Amar porashona to 10 bochor agei complete, tahole eto khata boi 6 mash ontor ontor Maa pache kotha theke. Ami oi khola boshta tate haath dhukiye dekhlam, mota shokto kichu, tene bar korlam, ekta diary beriye elo, chena chena diary, khule dekhlam first page khali, kono nam ba address nei, tarpor'er page e upore date deowa 21/01/2019, tar tolai Maa'er handwriting bengali te, lekha "Aaj shokale Meye, Nati ar Jamai Australia chole gelo, bari ta abar fanka fanka hoye gelo, bacha ta doura douri kore shara bari ar Raju'r pichon pichon ghure berai sara bari te. Ei bar jodio Raju ashe ni Kolkata'te. Raju'r Baba, Meye jamai ke charte giye, eke bare nijer Mejh Didi'r bari hoye ashlo sei shondhe belai. Aaj ar morning walk'e jaowa hoi ni, tai ektu evening walk'e jabo bhabchilam, kintu se aar holo na. Goto kaal onek shonde belai firechilam, Avi'r bondhu'r bari theke, O proti shoptahe 3 din kore je bhabe korche amar sathe Or bondhur barite niye giye, bari eshe khub tired hoye jai. Meye Jamai ache bole Avi ar bari te eshe roj korar shahosh pache na, tai amake or ekta bondhu'r barite niye giye, ek du ghonta lagai. Kintu kaal shokale niye gache, ar sei shondhe belai eshe chi amra. Meye bar bar jiggesh kore, eto ghono ghono keno ami ashram'e jai, oke ki kore bolbo, ashram'e matro 6 mash'e ek din jaowa hoi, ar ei ek mash ora esheche bole barite amai roj lagate na pere, Avi amake bondhu'r bari niye giye kore, jodio barite ektu shujog peleo kore. Avi aaj bikel theke sei Raju'r Baba asa obdi, tana 3.5hrs nongrami kore gelo. Aaj mon ta bhalo chilo na, bacha ta chole gelo bole, kintu Avi aaj amake jor korei pichone korlo. Amar ar bhalo lage na roj roj pichone dhokate, kintu Oi video du to Avi ki sotti delete kore diyeche, naki otao mithe kotha bollo goto mash e. Aaj O amar saya ta chire diyeche, dine dine Avi kemon jantur moton hoye jache, duto pacha tei kamreche aaj, ar prochondo nongra gala gal dilo aajo. Ei shob nongrami oke Sudha shekhache, er ekta beboshta nite hobe". Ami ar porte parlam na, karon ami bujhte peregechilam, je eta amar Maa'er diary. Amar Maa regular diary lekhen, ami ekdom choto bela theke dekhchi, amakeo bahu bar bolechilo kintu ami lekha pora korar por abar likte ekdom ready chilam na. Tar mane Maa nijer diary gulo, ei chacha'r kache bikri kore dei newpaper'er sathe. Bhaggish ei lokta bangla porte pare na, ar bollo to je O lekha pora koreni, aaj o to dekchi, boshta bhorti kore diary rakha. Duto boshta bhorti diary, ar upore ek bundle newspaper. Ami chacha ke bollam, "Chacha, aapni theek bolchen, eta dorkari khata, ami rekhe dichi, kintu Maa je gulo age tomake diyeche, se gulo ki korle, bikri kore diyecho naki ?", uni ektu bhebe bollen, "nahi to Babu, lekha khata bechte nahi hai Babu, meri Biwi thonga banati hai uska, kabhi kabhi me chura, badam wale dukan dar ko bhi bech deta hoon. Usse thora zyada paisa ashe barite Babu, magar Maa ji ager bar je boshta diye chilo, wo hai abhi bhi mere ghar me pura, wo kitab phare nahi abhi tak. Taro ager kitab ekhono ache amar kache, ar dhanda ekhon manda jache Babu, tai beshi taka asche na ote, upar se pen ka rang kagaj se nikal kar khane me lag jata hai, tai khane wale dukano me ab yeh kitaab ka panna nai bikta hai". Ami kono kichu na bhebei oke bollam, "Chacha ei kitab gulo to ami ekhon bikri korbo na, aapni kagoj niye jan shob. Ar Maa age joto kitaab aapna ke diyechilo, se gulo amake dite parle ami aapna ke kagoj'er double taka debo, ekhuni ene debe amake ? Maa na dekhei ei kitab gulo diye diyeche, amar lagbe ei gulo, joto gulo paro niye esho ekhuni". Uni shune amar dike takiye bollo, "Babu, ami to Maa ji ke age bhi bolechilam, kitaab Saraswati ache, bechte nahi isko, ami gawar aadmi achi, pora lekha jani na magar firbhi izzaat kori lekha porar. Amar taka lagbe na, Maa ji amar theke taka nei ni, aapka saman hai yeh sab, lekha pora korbe ota niye, ami ekhuni anchi bari theke, ami ei kagoj gulo niye jachi. Ektu pore sara kitaab bori me bhar ke lata hoon Babu", bole Chacha oi newspaper'er bundle ta nilo ar onno boshta ta khule okhan theko newspaper'er bundle ta bar kore niye beriye, cycle'e dori diye bendhe chole gelo. Amar Maa to puro movie'er criminal der moton diary gulo smuggle kore dichilo, ar ei lokta na jani kake kake ei dairy'r page chire diye beriyeche, ei Chacha na hoi porte jane na, kintu gota kolkata'i ki keu bangla porte jane na, jodi by any chance, barir address ba aro onno kono details likhe rakhe Maa, tahole band beje jabe amader. Maa ei rokom personal diary bikri korche keno, puriye ba jaliye dite parto egulo ke, this is equivalent to weapons grade plutonium. Ami main door ta bondho kore, aste aste kore, ekta ekta kore boshta gulo upore niye amar ghorer bed'er tolai dhukiye rakhlam apatoto, oto bhari boshta gulo ekta ekta kore 3rd floor'e tulte onek ta time lege gelo, prai 20 minutes. Totokhune abar bell bajlo, ami upor theke unki mere dekhlam, niche ekta van dariye, ar tate onek gulo boshta, ami jiggesh korlam ke, to dekhlam, Chacha unki mere amar dike upore haath dekhalo, amio aschi bole haath dekhalam. Amar ghorer table'er upor theke koto ta cash ache gunte dekhlam, prai Rs. 7,320 chilo, puro Rs. 7,000 niye baki change ta table'e rekhe niche neme giye main door khullam. Door khultei Chacha dekhlam, Van theke sada sada 5 ta boro boshta ek ek kore amar Main door'er samne rakhlo ar tarpor bollo, "Babu yehi kitaab baki tha, amar kache boro boshta chilo, ami bhar ke liye eshechi. Kitaab'er panna te lekha ache tai keu lite chai na, khane ka saman me yeh pen ka rang lag jata hai. Yeh bekar me ghar pe para hua tha". Ami to dekhe obak, bishal boro boro sada boshta bhorti kore diary eneche. Aaj je boshta ta Maa rekhe gechilo, otar theke prai double ba triple size'er ei sada boshta gulo. Ami jiggesh korlam, "Chacha, Maa ke koto taka diyechile ? mone ache ?", uni bollen, "Babu, Maa ji to taka liten na, ami boltam, par wo leti nai thi, uni bolten kagoj beche taka libe na, amai diye diten, tai to ami diye gelam". Ami onake bollam, "Chacha, aapni ei taka ta rakhun[bole Rs. 7,000 onar dike bara lam, kintu uni nichilen na, tai ami bollam], arey Chacha, aapni eta rakhun, shobe lockdown khuleche, ar ager moton kichui normal hobe na. Ei taka ta rakhun aapni, aapni ei guloo amake return diye gelen, ei ta takar theke onek beshi. Aapni ei taka gulo rakhun, kaaje lagbe. Ar aapnar bari kothai, ektu bole din, tahole er por theke ami purano newspaper aapnar barite diye asbo, aapna ke ar aste hobe na". Amar onek bar bolate uni na na koreo, taka gulo nilo, kintu puro ta nilo na ar bollo, "Babu, aapni eto bhaben amader moton gareeb aadmi'r jonno, Bhagwan aapka aur Maa ji ka bhala karega. Aapni bhalo thakben Babu, mera ghar wo aapke society ke security guard ko pata hai, puche leben. Aur aapko takliff karne ka jarurat nahi hai, amake call diye deben, main aa jaunga. Ami eto taka nite parbo na Babu, ami 3000 lichi, etai onek Babu". Ami onake okhane darate bole, ghorer bhitor theke duto reusable 4 layer cloth mask[ami Myntra theke Van Heusan'er 4 layer cloth reusable mask kine chilam, pack of 5 set of 2] niye ashlam ar onake diye bollam, "Chacha, gamcha diye ei corona virus atkabe na, aapni ei mask ta pore baire beroben, ar ei ta Chachi'r jonno, rastai berole Mask pore berobe, ar ei mask ta barite giye dhuye abar porte parbe, bar bar, fele dite hobe na, ar ei ta rakho[bole onar haate aro Rs. 1000 dilam ar bollam], ei ta pore kaaje lagbe". Uni mask ta pore, taka gulo nijer lungi'er komore guje niye bollen, "Babu sach me Bhagwan aapka bhala karega. Kono kaaje amar darkar lagle, ekta call diye deben, ami chole asbo Babu. Maa ji ko amar pranam deben. Mein jaata hoon". Bole uni onar Van ta niye amar barir samne theke chole gelen. Ami tarpor onek koshte 2 to sada boro boshta main door'er samne theke ground floor'er siri'r samne rakhlam, bishal bhari boshta gulo, ami baki 3te boshta dhokate main door'er samne giye dekhi Avi'r Maa, mane Kaki dariye ache oder main door'er samne ar chechiye amake bollo, "Eto boro boshtai ki re egulo Raju, ke diye gelo ?", ami chechiye bollam, "amar gach'er fertilizer, sesh hoye gechilo tai phone kore bolte ora diye gelo, ei dhokachi", Kaki bollo, "bapre, eto boro boshta tui chade tulte parbi eka ? Avi ke bolbo, dujone mile korle taratari hoyei jabe, dara oke daki", ami baron kore bollam, "na na Kaki, oke dakte hobe na. Ami theek tule nebo, amar kache boshta tolar jonno oi cart ta ache, ote korei tule nebo. Ota to siri diye boshta tolar jonnoi kine chilam. Tumi kaaj shere nao, ami e gulo tule ni", bole kono rokome, ekta ekta kore, tinte boro boshta ghoshe ghoshe ground floor'er siri'r samne ene joro korlam ar main door ta bondho kore dilam. Boro bachan benche chi, Kaki jodi ar ektu age door khulto taholei jene jeto je oi Kabari wala eshechilo ar ki ferot diye gache amake. Amake Diary gulo ke puriye dite hobe shob, nahole Maa'er past'er bapare onek kichu samne chole aste pare, je kono loker samne. Kintu puriye felar age, ektu pore dekhi, koto purano diary ache ekhane, bole ekta boshta, tene tene ground floor'e dhukiye, floor'er upor'ei dhele fellam, I honestly don't know how many, but prochur diary berolo ota theke. Ami oi diary'r pahar theke ekta tule khule dekhlam, page ta ektu yellowish hoye esheche, mane ektu holeo purano hobe. First page ta khullam, no name or address, porer page khullam, Dated: 04/07/2015, Maa'er bangla handwriting khub shundor, kinda calligraphy'r moton. Maa likhechen, "Aaj tana 3 raat pore abar likchi, goto 2 din ar 3 raatri, amar oboshta bajarer meyeder thekeo kharap kore rekhe chilo Avi. Or Jethu sei 1st July sondhe belai tar Didi'r bari geche, tar hotat shorir kharap'er khobor peye, ar sei din raat theke aaj shokal bela obdi, amar shorir ta chire kheyeche. Ei tin raat, du din, amar gaye ekta kapoor jorate dei ni. Kono rokome, chan korar por ar shondher pujo'r shomai gaye gamcha joriye pujo ta diyechi, tao matro 5 minute'er jonno. Sondhe belar pujote majhe majhe ektu shomai lege jeto, kintu ektu deri holei oi oshobho Avi ta, oi thakur ghorei amar gamcha tene khule, amake puro langto kore pichone'e lagate shuru kore dito. Ki oshohai lagchilo majhe majhe. 2nd July to aro oshobhota korlo Avi, shondhe balai thakur ghore oi shob korar shomai, bell bajte ami kono rokome, gamcha ta mati theke tule Avi ke dhakka diye main door er kache giye dekhlam ke elo, kintu Avi doure eshe, okhanei abar amar pichone dhukiye lagate shuru kore dilo, gayer gamcha kothai chure fele dilo ar amake dar koriye main door'er gaye haat diye, amar pichon marte thaklo, tokhon abar calling bell bajlo. Ami jiggesh korte, baire theke ko-ekta chele bollo, ora society'r club'er chele, ar Raju'r Baba ke kichu kagoj'e sign korte hobe bole, oi paper gulo barite dite esheche. Ami Avi ke aste aste bollam je amake jate gamcha ta ontoto dei, kintu O directly Main door ta khule, ektu fank kore, amar matha ta baire jhukiye, pichone dhukiye dariye roilo, chele gulo ke ami kono rokome bollam, je Raju'r Baba barite nei, tai ora ko ek din por jeno ashe. Theek jokhon ami kotha bolchi, Avi jore ekta thap marlo amar pichone, ami ar thakte na pere, ektu nore ar chechiye porte, bairer chele gulo amake jiggesh korchilo, je ami theek achi ki na, ami kono rokom'e bollam, je eto gorom porechilo, tai ami snan korchilam ar theek sei shomai ora bell bajalo, ar ekhon besh mosha kamrache, door khola ache to tai. Avi shomane lagiye gelo amar pichone, ar ami norte norte kotha bolchilam, matha ta ekhono bariye thele amar ghar ta dhore shomane kore gelo amar pichone. Tarpor chele gulo chole jaowar por, ami main door ta bondho korlam ar shonge shonge Avi pichon theke or ota bar kore, bathroom'e chole giye dhuye ghore boshe TV dekhte laglo langto hoye. Ami jiggesh korte bollo, ar bhalo lagchilo na naki or, abar pore korbe. Ami ektu dhuye eshe, saree ta porte gelam, shobe saya ta porechi, Avi eshe, Saya ta puro chire dilo tene, ar bichanar upor amar pet chepe shuyie, pichon theke chera saya'r dori ta tene dhore amar upore uthe, pichone dhukiye abar 2-3 minute jore jore dhokalo, tarpor abar bar kore niye, saya te puche, amake bollo jeno ami kono kapor na pori. Karon ai din ta naki amader 5th anniversary. Tai oi din O amake sara din raat langto kore rakhte chai barite ar jehetu Raju'r Baba chilo na barite, tai joto din na O bari asche, Avi amar sathe ei bhabei thakbe. Tai barir shob janla, bondho kore rekhechilo, goto kal raat thekei. Goto kaal raat'e 4 bar amar pichone rosh dheleche, sesh bar to ami janteo pari ni kokhon dhokalo, hotat bonta te betha korte dekhlam, oi janowar ta amar pichone dhukiye lagache, ke jane kokhon theke, ar or mukhe amar bonta. Aaj shokal theke sara din langto hoye ghurchi nijer barite, saree porte gelei, saya, blouse chire diche Avi. Badho hoye, sara khun langto hoye ghurchi nijer baritei. Dupurer ranna korchi tokhon khali khali Avi eshe amar pichone dhukiye 1-2 minute korei, chole jachilo. Kotobar bollam, ektu beshi shomai korle amar o hoye jabe, kintu continuously oi bhabe 1 minute kore dhukiye, bar kore nichilo. Sedin raate sara barite ghuriye ghuriye amake lagiyeche pichone, chair'e nije boshe, amake Or kole boshiye, 3 minute moton dhokalo, tarpor chair'e ulto kore boshiye, amar matha ta chair'er headrest'e chepe dhore, amar pacha ta ektu bairer dike bar kore, 2-3 minute lagiyeche. Tarpor raat'e amake puro langto kore, Raju'r ghore niye gelo, ar or bicha na te besh onek khun korlo kukurer moton, tarpor prai raat 1:30am baje ghorite, tokhon amake chade niye giye, joler tank'er slab'er upor tule, amake okhane kukur hote bolechilo, kintu amar shorire ar kono energy chilo na, tai ami shuye porechilam shoja hoye ar oke onek baron korechilam, ar na korte. Kintu O amar kono kotha na shune bollo je anniversary te O kono kotha sunte chai na, tarpor amar duto pa nijer kandher upor tule, slab'er niche dariye dariye amar pacha fank kore gatiye gatiye dhukiye chilo, ami ar thakte na pere, nijer jol khosiye felechilam. Avi'o amar pichon'er futo tei nijer shob rosh dhallo, ar amar gu bar korlo. Prai 15 minute, oi bhabei amar pode dhukiye dariye dariye amar dud tipe tipe, nijer ta abar dar koriye felechilo. Tarpor amake tene boshate cheyechilo, kintu amar shorire ar kono jor chilo na, ami noi oggan hoye jetam, na hoi ghumiye portam. Pichon'er futo ta prochondo betha hochilo, shokal thekei, eto beshi bar korchilo Avi shukno shukno. Amar to mone hochilo, rokto na beriye jai, prothom barer moton. Avi jedin prothom amar pichon'e dhukiye chilo, amar rokto beriye chilo ar prochondo betha hoyechilo, paikhana jete parini du din bethar jonno. Sedin raateo oto tai betha hochilo. Kintu amar oi oboshta dekheo Avi amake chare ni. Oi bhabe shuyie prai 3 minute moton lagalo amar pichone, tarpor charlo amake. Ami okhanei prai 1hr theke 1.5hr, oi slab'er upor netiye pore chilam, pod theke paikhana beriye, pacha bhorti hoye chilo, kintu amar shorire kono khomota chilo na othar. Prai 1.5hrs pore, hotat ektu jhir jhir kore brishti porte, amar ektu hunsh elo, dekhlam Avi kothau nei, ar ami ektu uthe boshe tarpor aste aste korei chad theke oi bhabe nongra hoye neme elam. Brishti ta jore hote laglo, tai ar chad porishkar korte holo na, brishtir jolei shob ta porishkar hoye jabe. Avi kokhon niche neme gechilo, ami jani na. Ami niche na giye, Raju'r ghorei dhuke, age bathroom'e giye pacha ta bhalo kore dhuye nilam. Pod'e batha korchilo tai ekta angul diye dekhlam, kirokom fule chilo rectum ta ar haat dilei aro betha korchilo. Ami amar gaa ta ekta towel diye punche, Raju'r bichana tei shuye portei ghumiye gelam. Porer din shokale ghum bhanglo, Avi'r oi ta amar mukhe niye, kokhon eshe amar mukhe dhukiye diyeche. Ghum bhangtei ami oke shorate gelam, kintu O amake kaat kore puro chitkore shuyie dilo ar amar Mukher bhitor chepe or bara ta dhukiye, or bichir thole ta amar naker kache theshe dhore, amar du payer majhe mukh ta rakhlo. Ami Avi'r komor ta dhore shorate gelam kintu ulte O amar paa fank kore amar pod'er fola rectum ta halka halka kore jib diye chat te laglo. Ami ar nije ke theek rakhte parlam na, Avi'r komor theke haath ta shoratei, Avi nijer komor ta ektu upore tule, thop kore amar mukhe thap marte thaklo, ar shokal shokal amar mukhe dhukiye O nijer rosh fele, chepe or bara ta dhukiye badho korlo amake or nongra rosh gilte, tarpor amake charlo. Tokhon prai 10:30am baje. Ami okhan theke uthe, niche eshe bathroom'e giye, ektu bomi korlam golai angul dhukiye dhukieye, kintu puro ta berolo na. Ami age teeth brush korlam, tarpor bathroom ei snan kore, gamcha diye gaa punche, oi gamcha ta gaye joriye, shoja thakur ghore giye taratari kore ektu pujo korlam, kintu nichu hoye boshe pujo korte khub lagchilo pod'e, tarpor nichu hoye matha ta matite thekiye pronam korchilam, ki hotat kore Avi kotha theke eshe amar pacha theke gamcha ta tene tule, thakur der samnei, thakur ghore amar pichon'e dhukiye, gatiye 10ta thap diye amake chere dilo. Ami kono rokome, kandte kandte thakurer kache khoma cheye, baire eshe shoja comode e giye boshlam, ar hor hor kore onek ta paikhana holo, kintu rectum ta khub betha korchilo. Ami tarpor pod ta dhuye, kono rokome baire eshe ranna korte ranna ghore dhukchilam, Avi amake bollo je aaj naki Sudha dupurer khabar diye jabe. Tai ami olpo ektu poha baniye oke diye, nijeo kheye nilam. Ar nijer ghore giye, ektu shuye porechilam. Avi'r gola peye uthe dekhlam, O amar jonno ekta plate'e kore khabar niye esheche, ghori te dekhlam, 3:10pm. Avi bollo, Sudha eshe khabar bere diye gache, ar Avi kheye niyeche, tai amio kheye nilam. Tarpor ami sink'e giye shob plate ar bowl gulo meje nichilam, hotat kore Avi eshe amar pichone dariye amar dud duto khub kore tipte shuru korlo ar nijer oi ta amar pacha'r fank'e ghoshche, ami tarahuro kore plate gulo dhuye tule rakhlam, karon je kono shomai, Avi abar amar pichone dhokabe, kintu amar pod'e rectum taa ekhono khub fule ache, ar prochondo betha korchilo, shokale paikhana korte giye aro betha peyechi. Kintu Avi ke atkate giye, ami plate gulo rekhe, oke thele shoriye, okhan theke tarahuro kore kothai palabo, bhabte bhabte, siri diye langto hoyei upore uthe chi koekta siri, hotat kore Avi amar pichone eshe amar komor chepe dhorlo, ar ami prai porei jachilam tai duto haath diye samner duto siri te haath rekhe balance korechi, ar theek sei shomai, Avi amar pichon'e dhukiye diyeche, ami bethai chechiye uthe, samne egiye bar korte jachilam or barata, kintu O aamar komorer maduli ar tabiz ar chain duto pichon the tene dhore, shojore ek thape purota dhukiye diyechilo. Ami chechiye gelam bethai, kintu Avi amake siri'r upor kukurer moton kore rekhe shomane thapiye gelo prai 15-20 minutes. Ami jala te katrachilam, kintu Avi amake nongra gala gal diye, amar pod'e dhukiye gelo jore jore. Tarpor amar kandh duto dhore, samne jhuke amar pithe kamre dhore, ekta bhishon jore thap mere, amar pichone rosh charlo ar tarpor pichon theke or Ota bar kore, niche bathroom'e chole gelo. Ami bethai okhanei kukur hoye roilam, ar amar pod theke, Avi'r sada sada ghono rosh porlo top top kore ar amar kichu ta paikhana o porlo siri te, ami matha nichu kore dekhlam, jodio siri te paikhanar gondho onek age thekei chorate shuru korechilo, kokhon je control hariye kore felechi, bujhte parini. Amar rectum ta mone hoi fete gache ei rokom sukhno ghosha ghoshite. Ami oi bhabei dariye achi, hotat kore main door ta khule Sudha amader bari dhuklo, ami ghar ta ghuriye dekhe, abar matha ta samne kore, kandte thaklam prochondo bethai ar lojjai. Sudha amake ageo o bhabe dekheche, kintu aaj O siri diye ektu uthe eshe amar khola haa hoye thaka fola rectum ta dekhe, ektu michke henshe bollo, "Ee maa, Didi tomake to mone hoi daktar'er kache niye jete hobe, Ki obostha koreche Avi tomar, pod'er futo to haa hoye achei, kintu pod'er futor chamra to fule laal hoye, prai 1-1.5 inch unchu hoye baire beriye esheche go, mone hoche ekhuni rokto berobe". Ami chup kore shune gelam, amar norar moton obostha chilo na, ami pacha chepe darate parchilam na, rectum ta eto ta fule baire beriye eshechilo, ami pacha chapte gelei maratok jontrona hochilo, emni tei betha te chokh diye shomane jol porei jache, tokhon'o top top kore Avi'r rosh ar amar gu olpo olpo porchilo siri te. Ami cheshta korchilam, siri'r railing ta dhore uthe darate, kintu eto betha korchilo, ami khali khali jhuke pore jachilam samne. Sudha bujhte pere, egiye eshe amar komore haat diye dhore, amake kono rokome ektu shoja koralo, tao ami samne jhuke beke dariye chilam, pichon dike pacha ta thele baire bar kore. Ar ek pa ek pa kore ghoshe ghoshe niche neme, bathroom'e giye nijer pod ta hand shower diye dhulam, tarpor towel diye ar pochar khomota hoi ni, ami directly giye, amar medicine box theke ekta paracetamol 650mg kheye, amar bed'e jontro nai shuye ghumiye porlam. Hotat amar rectum ta shurshuri lagchilo, ami ghum theke uthe dekhi, ami pet'er upor bhor kore shuye achi, ar amar pacha ta fank kore, Avi amar rectum ta chatche, ar nijer jeeb ta shoru kore, rectum'er modhe dhokache ar bar korche, oi fola rectum ta ektu chuschilo, ar ei shob korate amar khub shurshuri lagchilo. Ami chai na O ei shob kore abar amake lagak, amar shorire ar kichu baki nei. Ami tai oke ek haat diye shorate chaichilam, kintu Avi amake oi bhabe pet'er upor bhor korei shuyie, amar pithe'er upor nije langto hoye uthe porlo, ar ulto hoye, nijer paa duto amar mathar dike diye, haat diye amar pacha ta fank kore, fola rectum ta chete gelo, ami ar norteo parchilam na, Avi'r bara ta amar dan kandh'er pichon theke, gola obdi eshe jhulche. Amar iche korchilo na ota chat te, tai nijer matha ta balishe chepe dhore, fola pod chatanor shukher chitkar ta atkachilam. Prai 15-20 minuter continuous chata te ami ar nijeke dhore rakhte parini, tai gud'er rosh ta bichanatei chere dilam. Avi dekhlam amake chere diye uthe porlo, ar amake shoja kore ghuriye shuyie diye, shoja amar buk e shuye pore, amar ekta dud mukhe niye aste aste kore chuste thaklo ar ar ekt dud chotkate thaklo. Ami na chaiteo or mathai haat bulote bulote, ekta haat diye, or bara ta dhore chotkate thaklam. Ar ektu hole Avi'r rosh beriye jeto kintu Avi amar haat theke or bara ta chariye niye bollo, or ar rosh bar korte bhalo lagche na. O amake bollo, raat'er dinner or Maa rekhe gache, O nijei khabar bere amake diye, nijeo khelo. Ami dinner kore, bed theke neme, khub aste aste kore, paa fank kore kore kitchen'e giye shob plate rekhe tarpor ektu jol kheye bathroom kore, aro ekta paracetamol 650mg kheye amar ghore giye Avi ke bollam, jate O or bari chole jai. O bollo, oporer kono ekta ghore shuye porbe, bole chole gelo. Bathroom'e boshe, bathroom korteo khub betha pelam, tai ar deri na kore, bed'e langto hoyei shuye porlam, ekta chador gaye diye, tokhon prai 9:45pm chilo. Onek khun pore, abar amar ghum bhanglo, rectum ta khub thanda thanda lagche, chokh khule dekhi ami abar pet'er upor upur hoye shuye achi, amar pacha ta fank kore Avi kichu ekta korche, amar ghum bhangte Avi amake ekta Durex'er laal ronger ekta tube dekhiye bollo eta amar anniversary gift. Otar sathe aro kichu naki ache, se gulo du tin pore debe amake. Ami baron kore dilam, kintu O sunlo na, tobe O oi Durex'er tube theke ektu laal ronger ekta gel type'er kichu nijer angul'e niye amar mukher kache niye eshe dekhalo, kemon strawberry foler gondho berolo, tarpor bollo, je oi ta naki amar pichon'e lagiye diyeche O. Tai hoito thanda thanda lagche. Avi bollo, Oi gel ta naki lubricating gel, pod'e lagiye tarpor dhokale naki ar betha korbe na. Avi oi haater gel ta abar amar rectum'e ar futor modhe lagiye dilo, besh thanda thanda lagchilo. Ami ghure uthe boshte jabo kintu Avi amar matha ta du haate ektu tule amar theek mukher samne nijer du paa fank kore boshe, nijer darano bara ta shoja amar mukher modhe dhokate laglo. Ami matha ta shoriye nite gelam, kintu Avi amar matha ta chepe nijer bara'r upore dhore rakhlo, ar amar nak ta or tolpete thekchilo ar amar thutnita or bichir thole te lege chilo. Ami haat diye or paye mere gelam, tao charlo na amake, amar nishash nite oshubidhe hochilo, prai 1 minute oi bhabe amar nishash bondho howar moton kore chepe, tarpor amar mukh theke bara ta bar korlo ar amar mukh theke lala bhorti hoye prai gola theke beriye elo. Ami nishash nite pere hap chere bach lam, oi tuku shomaiyer modhe Avi amar upore uthe amar pacha'r fank'e fola rectum'er futo te oi lala laga bara ta chepe dhore amar pithe shuye porlo, ar chap portei 'por por' kore amar ektu gas berolo ar Avi'r oi ta puro ta amar fola rectum ta fatiye bhitore abar dhuke gelo. Ami chitkar kore matha ta tulte gelam, kintu Avi amar mukh ta ghuriye, amar gaal'e kiss korlo, tarpor oi bhabe puro ta bhitore dhukiye, amar daan haat'er maduli ar chain ta chushe, nijer matha ta aro nichu kore, kaat hoe amar daan bogol ta chatlo jeeb diye. Amar chechano bondho hote, Avi ektu upore uthe amar duto haat'er upor nijer duto haat diye, du dike tene dhore, oi haat'er upor nijer ojon ta diye, komor ta tule jore ekta thap marlo. Ami rectum'er jontronai chotfot korchilam, matha ta ekbar eidike ar ekbar oidike ghorachilam, ar chokh theke somane jol berochilo, kintu Avi amar du haath du dike shoja kore tene dhore chilo pichon theke tai ami uth te parchilam na. Avi shomane amake thapiye gelo, majhe majhe matha nichu kore amar bogol gulo ektu chatchilo ar amar pithe kiss korchilo. Prai 20 minutes oi bhabei amake mere felar moton lagalo pichon theke, tarpor amar baan haat'er maduli ta chat te chat te, amar baan bogol ta pichon theke ektu kamre amar pod bhorti kore rosh charlo. Amar totokhune behunsher moton obostha. Ar chechate parchina, rectum nirghat rokta rokti hoye gache, amar ar norar kono khomota nei. Ami oi bhabei shuye roilam, Avi kichu khun dhukiye rekhe, tarpor amar upor theke uthlo, tarpor nijei ekta handkerchief bhijiye niye amar rectum ar baki area gulo muchiye dilo, ektu dettol'er moton gondho berolo. Ami jani na tokhon kota beje chilo, ar jontronai ar bethai, kokhon ghumiye porechi, tao jani na. Shokale amar phone bajte ghum bhanglo, Raju'r Baba call korechilo, je Didi'r shorir ager theke bhalo ache, tai aaj dupurer modhe na hole bikele fire asbei. Phone'e dekhlam 10:40am baje. Pash fire dekhi ami tokhon'o langto, rectum tokhon'o fule betha korchilo, Kintu ektu kom. Bichana theke nongra gondho berochilo, ish ami nischoi raate, sesh bare jokhon Avi lagalo, tokhon paikhana kore felechilam. Kono rokome uthe, mukh haath dhuye, age bed sheet ar pillow cover gulo, niye washing machine'e dilam ar bichana theke oi durex'er tube ta shoriye Raju'r ghore rekhe ashlam, tarpor niche aste giye siri te kono nongra dekhte pelam na, tarmane Avi porishkar kore diyechilo. Ar nije snan kore fresh hoye, saya blouse ar saree pore, age pujo kore, tarpor olpo kore ektu lunch kore, ektu Tv dekhbo bhebe sofa te boshte gelam, kintu boshte na boshtei, rectum'er oi fola jaiga ta khub jore jontrona korte thaklo. Kono rokome kaat hoye boshe boshe ektu obhash korlam, tarpor aro ekta paracetamol tablet khelam, na hole Raju'r Baba kichu shondeho korbei. Avi kaal onek jaigai kamreche, kintu shobi prai pichon'er dike tai saree pore thakle daag dekha jabe na. Aaj shokale ghum bhangar por theke ami Avi ke barite dekhtei pai ni, nischoi bhor belai bari chole geche. Eto ottachar'er por ami ar or kache jete chai na, kotha ta bolchi theek'i kintu, Avi je poriman sukh amake diyeche, seta ami age pai ni, amai jodio o sotti bhalobashe na, tobuo or proti amar ekta taan to achei. Ar ei goto 2-3 din'e ami to bethai behunsh hoye chilam beshir bhag shomai, Avi abar kono fondi kore, amar oi obsthai kono photo ba video kore rakhe nito ager moton. Jiggesh korle to mitthe bolbe. Ekhon raat 11:30pm prai, Raju'r Baba oto ta journey kore eshe, kokhon ghumiye poreche, ami etokhun dhore diary likhchi dekhle, raag korbe, loktar shob i bhalo, sudhu sharirik bhalobasha theke mon ta je keno uthe gelo, taholei amai Avi'r kache jete hoto na bar bar. Nah, onektai raat holo, amio ghumai, rectum'er betha ta mone hoi na eto taratari jabe". Bapre, ami ei 4 page'er diary entry porte porte ekbar already maal out kore fele, abar narate boshe chilam. Maa diary te eto details lekhe, jodio diary personal jinish proti ta loker, kintu Maa'er diary te ei shob lekha, ar Avi amar Maa'er sathe ei shob korechilo. Bapre, chude chude haemorrhoid bar kore diye chilo Maa'er pod theke. Tar poreo kore gache. Mane Maa ageo ei rokom extreme sex ba BDSM koreche, tai sedin raate[jedin Sukanto Kaku ke hospitalised korte holo], oi rokom sex korar poreo, Avi'r kache abar chodon khelo. Ar amar Baba sex korto na, ei ta amio bohu bochor age doubt korechilam, karon Baba kirokom shob math'e[Ramkrishna Math] jachilo ghono ghono, ar mantro bolto barite onek shomai, ar boddo adha-tik dike mon diyechilo. Baba jodi Maa'er upor beshi concentrate korto tahole oi rascal Avi tar sathe Maa ke sute hoto na. Oi shob porte porte amar time'er kheyal i nei. Amar phone ta bajlo sunte peye ami upore gelam amar room'e[amar floor'er ar room'er door wide open tai sunte pelam], giye dorte jabo ki, call ta cut hoye missed call hoye gelo, dekhlam amar friend chilo bangalore theke. Phone'er clock'e time 2:10pm, bapre, diary'r ekta entry porte porte ami eto ta time lagiye dilam, jodio amar bangla porte ektu time lage, ar Maa'er entry puro bangla tei.