Amar Boisko Maa er Chodon Lila - অধ্যায় ৪৫

Hospital'e giye Doctor'er sathe kotha bollam, Doctor bollen, "Look, I won't say that, there's a new hope, but fortunately, Mr. Naskar amader medicine'er dose'e respond korche, not much but, definitely korche. His body is producing urine, in very small amount again. Its a good sign, but dekha jak koto ta medicine ta help korte pare, ar onar body koto ta nite pare medicine ta. I'm putting the dialysis on hold for now, but within 3 days, if his body doesn't start producing urine on its own, then dialysis is the only way out of this. Oh ar ekta kotha, he has not regained consciousness since yesterday, thats also troubling us now. Maybe its a side effect of this medicine, but we won't know until the test results comes tomorrow. Aapna ke ami shob ta bollam, ebar aapnar jodi kichu janar thake, you can ask", ami shob ta shune onake bollam, "I understand, je eta kono break through na, onar case'e. But atleast he's responding to the new medicine, seta to bhalo, right ? Mane, there's a chance he might recover, right ? ami sudhu etai jiggesh korchi". Uni ghar nere bollen, "Nope, I've told you before administering this drug, its not a regular medicine. It can force the body to mimick certain natural reflex, but its not a surety, that medicine ta stop kore deowar pore, body nijer natural function continue korbe. Amar kache kono statistics nei, jar upor base kore ami aapna ke kono good news dite parbo now. I'm telling you again. Maybe, ei medicine'er jonno, onar baki organs gulo affected hote pare, we are monitoring him closely, but its a definite possibility. Well, I have other patients to check, and I'll check on Mr. Naskar before leaving for the day. Good night". Bole uni beriye gelen OPD room theke. Ami ei jonno Doctor ar Lawyer der bhorsha korte pari na, dujonei, kono bhalo news bhalo bhabe dei na, shob shomai conditions apply, tag jhuliye rakhe. Kaku abar urine output korche, seta to bhaloi, but eta naki sudhu medicine'er jonno, medicine bondho to abar urine bondho, abar medicine beshi din dile, baki shob organ damage hoye jabe definitely. Prithibite koto kichu invent hoche, kintu protita jinisher advantage ar disadvantage, dutoi ache, how strange, medicine'er o disadvantage hoi, keno bujhi na. Jai hok, khobor ta to bhalo na kono bhabei, ami ki bolbo Kaki ke, uni to kichui bujhbe na, ar Avi ke to kharchar khatai dhora bhalo ekhon theke. Jai hok, ami hospital theke taratari berolam, karon hospital staff amake odbhut bhabe dekhchilo, tar karon ta jodio ami parking'e aste bujhte parlam. Security'r lok ta amake bollo, "Sir, barish ruk gayi bahut der pehle, aap abhi tak ise nikale nahi", bole amar rain proof jacket ar trouser's dike dekhalo, sotti ami ei waterproof hazmat suit pore, eto khun hospital'e ghure beralam, tai jonno shobai amake oi bhabe dekhchilo, bhabche hoito eta notun dhoroner PPE suit. Jai hok ami rain proof jacket ar trousers ta oi parking'ei dariye khule, fold kore, bag'e dhukiye nilam, ar amar phone ta bar kore, Kaki ke call kore, loudspeak'er rekhe shob ta bollam, sune to kanna thamlo na tar, joto jai koruk Kaki, Kaku to tar husband, tai hoito erokom kandche. Ami Kaki ke bollam je Doctor ta shob rokom chesta korche, hoito theek hoye jabe Kaku, kintu Kaki kanna thamalo na. Ami onek bole, bujhiye, call ta cut kore dilam. Kaki'r obosthar kotha bhebe, amar Maa'er kotha mone pore gelo, amar Baba'o hospitalised chilen, onek din, coma te chole gechilen, ar gyan fere ni. Maa khub kandto tokhon, sara din raat khali kandto. Manush nijeder life'e jai koruk, ba jerokom i hok na keno, husband wife'er modhe ekta aladai connection thake. Ami phone ta bag'e rekhe abar bike ta niye beriye porlam, Bailey Bridge[Majerhat bridge ta goto bochor'i dum fotash hoye gache, mane bhenge gachilo, tai tar parallel road'e ekta choto bailey bridge ekhon South Kolkata ke baki Shohor'er sathe connect kore rekheche, Jodio Durgapur bridge ache, but tar obosthao bhalo na] ta shobe cross korechi omni jhom jhom[ei rokom aowaj kintu hoi na, tobe shobai ei shob adjective diyei brishti ke define kore] kore brishti shuru holo abar. Kono rokome rail line ta cross kore, shoja footpath'e bike ta tule dilam, ar ekta gacher tolai dariye, bag theke rain jacket ta bar kore, bag ta porei, tar upor kono mote jacket ta porechi, bas du tin te lightning holo ar tarporei aro jore brishti shuru, ami bokar moton trousers ta bar kortei bhule gechi, jai hok atleast jacket ta time'e porte perechi, tobu ko-ek fota brishti gaye porechilo toto khun. Onekei dariye porechilo, brishti te na bhejar bhoye, karon TV te corona ki korbe na bole, manush ke heart attack deowar shob rokom beboshta kore rekhechilo news channel gulo, regular debate panel boshiye, shadharon manush ke aro bhoi dekhachilo, brishti te corona hobe, rodure chole jabe, thanda khele hobe, gorom khele chole jabe, etc. Sotti manush ekhon strange waters e. China'r onno kono maal beshi din na chol leo, ei Corona maal ta bhaloi prithibi dapiye berache. Any way, ami oi lightning'er modhe, gache'er tolai darate shahosh pachilam na beshi khun, tai rain proof trousers na porei, bike ta niye, beriye porlam, amar jeans ta bhije gelo instantly. Ami taratari kore bike chaliye, barir kacha kachi eshe, ekta market theke, olpo kore kichu vegetables kinlam, bhari odbhut jinish dekchi, gorom kale Orange[mane komola lebu] bikri hoche, choto belai school'e porechilam, Orange is a Winter fruit, Corona specialists doctor'ra news channel'er debate'e shadharon manush ke Vitamic C khete boltei, bajare, duniar joto lebu hoi, shob available hoye gelo, triple dam'e. Ar manush to moha murkho, tai kine bari niye jete shuru korlo, amio pati lebu kinechi Rs.10 per piece'e. Jai hok, olpo kichu kine, brishtir modhe, society'e gate diye bike niye dhukchi, amader society'r security guard, Mahesh Da, amake dar koralo, ekta chata mathai diye amar kache eshe bollo, "Baro Babu, shokale tumi ekta lohar drum'er khoj korchile, ami bolechi, ekjon ke, bollo kine nite hobe, emni debe na, ekhon corona'r modhe, ora onek taka niye nebe. Tomar ki khub dorkar, tahole ami oke ante bolbo, nahole kichu din por niyo, ami aro du ek jon ke bole dekhi". Mahesh Da, amar Baba ke Baro Babu bolten. Ageo bolechi, Baba society ar club'er president chilen, tai oneki onake Baro Babu, ba Ghosh Babu, ba Ghosh Da bolten, Baba mara aowar por theke, amake Baro Babu bole ekhon du ekjon. Ami baron kori, shobai amar theke boyosh'e boro, ami boli amake nam dhore dakte, kintu ora shone na. Ami Mahesh Da ke ektu ghuriye bollam, "na na, tomake shokalei to bollam, theek ache, ar khoj korte hobe na. Ami ektu paneer tandoori banatam charcoal'er upor. Kokhono banai ni to, tai bhablam, borsha kaal, ektu khaowa jabe. O ami gas'ei kore nebo, ar tomake deke nebo, ek sathe kahowa jabe. Ami gelam Mahesh Da, tola theke puro bhije gechi, e bar thanda lagche", O bhalo kore amar dike takiye bollo, "Acha, tumi bari jao, ei shomai ta bhalo na, O bhulei jachilam, ami cheler school'er taka pathiye diyechi, club'er computer theke, Ratan Da achen na, ora adda marchilo goto kaal, ami oke cash taka ta diye bollam, to shonge shonge, amar cheler school'er notun class'er admission ta kore dilo. Aaj kal koto shubidhe hoye gache, tomake jotoi dhonno bad di, seta kom, tumi puro tomar Baba'r moton, khub bhalo manush chilen, Okale chole gelen. Ei dekho, ami atke rakhlam tomai, tumi jao jao, bhije gaye bechara amar bok bok suncho, tumi jao, kichu lagle amai phone kore diyo". Ami ar na dariye bike niye bari eshe, age garage ta khule, tarpor bike dhukiye dilam. Uff, ki brishti re baba. Mahesh Da lok ta khub bhalo, Bahu bochor ache ekhane, ei lockdown'e society'e kono bari theke, regular maintainence'er kono taka poisa dichilo na keu. To ei security, gach pala porishkar, rasta porishkar, eder monthly salary hochilo na, tai ora bari bari giye cheye cheye nichilo, ki opomanio bepar ta, nijer kajer taka, cheye nite hobe. Oneke taka na deowar bhoi'e bole dilo, tader barir samne, ba ashe pashe kauke kono porishkar korte hobe na, ki boka boka bepar. Ami club'er meeting'e bepar ta niye bolechilam, je jar joto tuk shamortho, tara jeno egiye eshe, shahajo kore ei shob lokeder, emni te ami club'e jai na. But Baba mara jaowar por theke, ora amake nije rai bari te eshe bole jeto club'er meeting'e ki ki discuss hoto, ar ora ki decide korlo, ar amar decision tao jene jeto. Ratan Kaku chilo Vice President, kintu unio amake ek du bar bolechilen, je ami jeno ei bar club'e jaowa shuru kori, uni ar onar position'e thakte chaiche na, ei bar naki youth der haat'e shob ta chere dite chai ora. Ami raji hoi ni. Kintu ora ekhono eki kotha bole. Jai hok, oi bhabe crowd funding kore, security ar rasta porishkar korar lokeder, ekta beboshtha kora gelo, but tate oder half salary holo, puro ta noi, baki ta ami nije oder diye diyechilam tana 3 mash. Ora khub khushi hoyechilo. Kono manusher mukhe ek second'er jonno jodi hanshi fotate para jai, setai holo jibon'er shob theke boro paona. Eta bhaba bhul je ami Tata ba Ambani, ami jani taka gache fole na, kintu barite ami ar Maa, amar income'e du jon'er bhaloi hoye jai, extra ki hobe. Bari dhuke, bhije pant ar baki jama kapor change kore, taratari kore bath nilam. Tarpor bajar theke ana sabzi gulo dhuye, peel kore, chop kore, boil korte dilam. Ar aata mekhe, boiled sabzi gulo, pan'e olpo canola oil diye ektu nere nilam, ektu jeera ar turmeric powder diye. Tarpor ulto palta roti baniye nilam, karon amar roti gol to hoi na. Prochondo khide peye chilo, tai bari firey, age ranna korlam. But ami ja slow cook kori, aajo prai 2hrs lege gelo[karon ami shob shomai sabzi symmetrical, and equal size'e chop kori]. Jai hok, taratari dinner ta shere fellam. Tarpor, besh onek gulo diary niye garage'e rakhlam. Tarpor diary'r page gulo chire chire, ekta jaigai joro korchilam, ar diary'r hard cover gulo side'e stack kore rakhlam. Ami aro 2-3 bar kore ghore giye, joto gulo diary parlam, hate kore kore niye eshe garage'e rakhlam. Page gulo chire chire, joro kore, tarpor garage'er back door ta khule, dekhlam bhaloi brishti porche tokhono, bricks diye banano oi makeshift furnace tar modheo onek ta chai ar jol, chai gulo shokaler porano kagocher. Ami ekta haath oi brick'er modhe dhukiye tolai joma jol ta bar korar jonno, thele thele ekta base'er brick shoriye, chai ar jol bar kore deowar jaiga kore rakhlam, almost amar fist ta gole jabe oi jaiga diye, dekhlam shob joma jol ar kagoj pora chai, shob beriye gelo. Ami abar oi asbestos'er tukro diye, ekta side dekhe dilam jate, brishtir jol ta directly na dhoke, tarpor diary'r chera kagoj gulo, shob oi furnace'er bhitore dhokalam, but nicher kagoj gulo nischoi bhije gache, kintu oporer kagoj jolte jolte, nicher kagoj gulo shob abar sukhno hoye jabe. Ami joto gulo page chire chilam, shob dhukiye diyechi or modhe, tai ekdom opor obdi fule ache diary'r page'e. Ami ebar jerry can theke petrol dhalte jabo, tokhon besh jore ekta domka haowa te brishti'r chat amakeo kichu ta bhijiye dilo, ar hotat haowa te, onek diary'r page, oi furnace theke ure garage'e dhuke choriye gelo edik odik. Ami oi page gulo na kuriye, age petrol ta dhallam, furnace'er bhitore rakha diary'r page gulor upor, tarpor matchstick diye agun ta jaliye dilam, dau dau kore jole uthlo, besh bhalo lagchilo, jeno campfire hoche. Ami jerry can ta niye garage'er bhitore dhuke, dorja ta bondho kore, jerry can ta bondho kore, side'e rekhe, ure asha diary'r page gulo ekta ekta kore khuje khuje tulchilam floor theke. Shob gulo tule, abar garage'er door ta khule, baire berote jabo, haowa te aguner holka ta puro amar mukhe eshe porlo, reflex bhalo chilo, tai dhom kore dorja ta bondho kore dilam, na hole amar eto boro beard ar chul pure jeto nirghat. Ami ektu wait kore baire jaowar kotha bhablam. Ekta tool tene okhane boshe porlam, haate prai 16-17 pages, kichu yellowish, kichu normal. Ekta yellow page bar kore dekhlam, ota onek purano, karon ager page'r ink ar porer page'er ink overlap korche. Jai hok, ota Dated: 23/04/2012, Maa likchen, "Goto kaal raat 1:30am e Raju'r Pishi'r meye'r bari pouchalam, Delhi te. Ek matro bhagni amader, meye'r biye te aste pareni, khub iche chilo, kintu office theke chuti dei ni. Tai amra shobai mile or sathe dekha korte chole elam, Ami Raju'r Baba, Meye ar amader Jamai, sathe Avi'o eshe chilo. Porshu bikel 4:30pm e train'e uthechilam, Howrah theke Rajdhani Express'e, ar goto Kaal raat 11:20pm'e New Delhi dhuklo. Train'e to lekhar kono sujog'i pai ni, tai shob ta aaj'i likchi. Amader 4 jon'er ashar kotha final chilo, kintu sesh mesh, Avi nachor banda, okeo niye aste hobe, O bechara kothau ghurte jete pai na, tai Raju'r Baba ke bole aro ekta ticket koralam, amader sathei. Tobe sudhui je or iche chilo ashar, ta noi. Goto 1.5yrs dhore or sathe ekta notun shomporke joriye giye, ekhon amio oke chara beshi din thakte pari na. Ar O bolechilo, ek bar naki train'eo chesta korbe korar. O amake khub bhalobashe, jodio aaj kaal ektu gala gal dei amake olpo olpo, korar shomai, kharap lage na, khub beshi kichu bole na. Amio goto 1.5 bochor'e or shob iche puron korechi, o jokhon cheyeche, je bhabe cheyeche, jekhane cheyeche, oke korte diyechi. Amar shorirer tinte futoi ekhon or. Train'e othar, ager raat'e, Raju'r Baba'r ghumanor por, Avi jokhon eshechilo barite, amake lagate, tokhon kintu O bar bar kore bole diyechilo je, ami jeno onek gulo kapor chera niye jai train'e. Ami prothome bujhte parini, O keno bollo, kotha ta, jodio ami guchiye, bag'er ek konai rekhechilam, kapor chera gulo. Bikele train'e uthlam, othar age, Howrah station'e chart'e dekhlam, Meye Jamai ra ekta coupe peyeche, ar ami ar Raju'r Baba ekta coupe peyechi, Avi'r o amader sathe first classs'ei chilo, kintu O ekta cabin'e lower seat peyeche. Avi'r mon ta kharap hoye gechilo ektu, mukh dekhe bujhte perechilam. Tobe O bechara to kono din 1st class'e chore ni, tai O coupe ar cabin bepar ta bojhe na. Or iche chilo amake train'er bathroom'e korbe raat'er belai. Amra train'e uthe je jar alloted seat'e bag rekhe, shobai amader coupe'e chole elo, Avi'o elo. ektu golpo korlam, Avi'o or prothom 1st class'er experience ta share korlo amader sathe, shobai oke bacha bhebe ektu leg pull korlo, sudhu ami jani O koto boro bacha. Goto bochor, ami koto bar pregnant hoyechilam oi Avi'r jonno, Amar boyosh tokhon prai 53yr, majhe majhei amar period'er date pichiye jache aaj kal, hoito ei bochor thekei periods bondho hoye jabe, Kintu Avi'r shok, amar pet badhiye, tarpor amar pichon'e lagabe. Goto bochor, ek du bar amar nijero iche hoyechilo, ekta bacha ni, kintu eto boyosh'e onek complications hoye jabe, ar Raju'r Baba'r bole chalateo parbo na, karon uni goto 3 bochor, retired howar por thekei, ashram'e giye dik-kha niye felechen, ekhon ar uni amake choi na, khali bole, bhagoban'er kache jaowar shomai hoye esheche. Tai goto bochor puro contraceptive pill kheye chaliyechi, majhe majhe ek ek shopta bondho jeto, ta modhei Avi moharaj kella fateh kore dito. Delhi asbo bole ami pill khaowa du tin din bondho rekhechi, pill niyeo ashini, by chance jodi meye ba bhagni dekhe fele. Avi ei ko din amake condom pore kore ni, ami bolechhilam kintu O sone ni, jodio Avi aaj kal samne kom pichone beshi fele amar. Jai hok, golpo korte korte, prai raat 8 ta beje gelo, dekhlam Dhanbad station theke train ta abar start nilo, ar omni amader dinner serve korte elo attendant ta. Amra bollam, amader 5 jon'er dinner, ek sathe ekhanei serve korte, but Shobar coupe gulo ashe pashe na howai, attendant raji holo na, Meye Jamai'er coupe amader coupe'er theke 3 te age, ar Avi'r cabin ta amader theke 4 te pore. Tai shobai nijeder coupe'e giye dinner'er wait korlo, tarpor serve korte, ora amader coupe eshe boshe eksathe khelo. Khaowa sesh kore Meye Jamai ar Raju'r Baba por por edik odik'er bathroom'e gelo. Avi amar kache boshe bollo, 'Jethi, ami to bujhtei pari ni 1st class'e ei rokom privacy thakbe, kintu tumi ar ami to alada alada jaigai. Ek kaaj koro, tumi Jethu ke bolo, je tomar to raat'e toilet pai onek bar, tai tumi niche shobe, ar Jethu to opore uthte parbe na. Tai tumi bolo, jate Jethu amar sathe seat ta exchange kore nei, kono bhabe', or kotha sesh howar agei Meye Jamai chole elo, tarpor Raju'r Baba'o elo. Aro ek ghonta adda mere, shobai bollo, ebar ora shobe, Meye Jamai goodnight kore, nijeder coupe'e chole gelo, Raju'r Baba'o onar raat'er ghumer oshud ta kheye nilo jol diye, tarpor balish ta theek korchilo showar jonno. Avi amader coupe theke berote berote, amake chokh tipe ishara korchilo, jate ami kichu ekta kori, amio or dike michke hense oke ishara kore matha narlam, O chole gelo. Raju'r Baba coupe'er door ta bondho kore lock korte jabe tokhon ami bollam, je ami raat'e majhe majhe onek bar uthi peshab korte, tai ami niche shobo, kintu Raju'r Baba bollo je uni opore uth te parbe na. Kichu khun tora torki kore, ami bollam, je ami nahoi karor sathe nicher seat exchange kore ni, Raju'r Baba bollo, 'Meye Jamai'er notun biye hoyeche, ek bochor'o hoi ni, tai ora oder coupe'i thak', ami tokhon bollam je ami tahole, Avi'r sathe seat change kore ni, Avi'r to lower seat. Raju'r Baba omni amake baron kore diye bollo, je Avi'r cabin'e shob young changra chele ra ache, okhane jeno ami na jai, uni nijei Avi'r sathe seat ta exchange kore nebe, bole nijer joler bottle ta ar chosma ta niye, amake bollo, amra jeno coupe ta bhitor theke lock kore ghumai raate, ar goodnight bole Avi'r cabin'er dike gelo. Kichu khun pore Avi nijer haate ekta joler bottle ar bed sheet niye amar coupe'e elo, eshei coupe'er door ta bondho korte jachilo, ami baron korlam, ami bathroom'e jabo bole beriye, bathroom'e giye bhalo kore peshab korlam, ar dhuye nilam, ar pichon'er futo tao ektu dhuye nilam. Tarpor Meye Jamai'er coupe'er shamne diye ashar shomai kheyal korlam, oder door locked bhitor theke ar door'er porda ta tana. Ami amader coupe'e dhuke dekhi Avi, nicher berth'e shuye ache, ekta kombol gaye, Ami age door ta bondho kore, lock korlam, tarpor porda ta dilam door'e bhalo kore. Tarpor Avi'r kache giye ok jiggesh korte jabo, je O shuye porlo naki eto taratari, hotat kore, kombol khule nijei uthe amake tene nijer buker upore tule nilo. Oshobho ta puro langto hoye shuye chilo kombol chapa diye. Kotha na bariye, amar saree khulte shuru korlo, ami oke koto kore bojhalam, je train'e langto na korte, pichon theke saree ar saya tuleo to kora jai, jodi keu eshe jai, taratari kore saree saya porteo parbo na. Kintu O sunlo na, jodio goto 1.5 bochore Avi amake langto na kore ek din'o lagai ni, din'er belai o, amake puro nir bostro kore tobei Moha rajer shanti. Saree ta khule, amake nijer upore tene, amake kat koriye, saya sudhu angul guje dilo pichon'e, uff sukhno kapor sudhu keu dhokai, ami nijei blouse ar bra ta khule, pashe rakhtei, amar pith ta tene, nijer mukher kache amar dud ta niye, khop kore ekta bonta mukhe dhukiye chosha shuru korlo, ar haath bariye, saya ta tola theke tene komorer upor gutiye, amar pacha duto du haat diye tene fank kore, duto angul, ekta pichon'e ar ekta samne'r futo te dhukiye dilo, khub moja peyechilam. Ami oke jiggesh korechilam je O condom ene chilo kina, karon ami pill khaowa bondho korechi ekhon, ar O sathe ache manei, O kono sujog charbe na amake laganor. Tobe pill chara korle amar pet kore debe nirghat. Ar ei boyosh'e pet fuliye ghure berate parbo na ami. O dud khete khete matha narlo, kintu O goto du din'o matha nere, amar bhitore maal dheleche, condom ta pore ni. Ami or mukhe alto kore ekta chor mere abar jiggesh korlam, O ektu raag dekhiye, amar bonta ta kamre tarpor chere dilo, ar amar saya'r dori ta khule, saya ta khule fello aamar matha goliye. Ami puro langto hoye seat'e boshe achi, Avi uthe eshe amar samne daralo, ar amar mukher kache or oi lomba jinish ta niye narate thaklo, ami ota dekhe, nijei haa korlam, ar omni amar matha ta dhore cheleta amar mukher modhe or lomba barata dhukiye dilo, ami jib diye chushe chete, or bara'r matha'r mukhtai fank korte gelam, kintu O ektu betha peye, amar gaal'e ekta alto kore chor marlo, O ageo onek kichu koreche, kokhono amar mukh dhore upore Or mukher dike tule, chushte boleche, Ami'o or shob iche puron korte chai, O amake onek bhalobasha diyeche ei 1.5yrs e. Prai 4-5minute chushe, O pichiye giye or oi ta amar mukh theke bar kore nilo, tarpor amake tene tule dar koralo, ar ghuriye dar koralo, tarpor amake seat ta dhore niche jhuke darate bollo paa fank kore. Ami bujhte pere chilam, O ki korte chai, tobe train bole, amar darate ektu oshubidhe hochilo, ektu dule dule jachilam. Tao seat ta dhore jhuke daralam, Avi amar pichone eshe, amar pacha fank kore, amar gud'e mukh diye chat te thaklo, ki nongra lage, amar chul gulo, or mukhe lage, kintu O kat te dei na ekdom. Bhalo lagchilo, oi bhabe O chatchilo bole, kintu kichu khun chetei O abar amar pichon'er futo niye porlo. Koto khun oi bhabe chatlo, jani na. Seshe ami birokto hoye oke korte bollam, O amake ghuriye, janla'r dike ghuriye, janla ta dhore dar koriye dilo, janlar porda khola, amar dud duto janlar kanche chepe ache ar Avi, amar dan paa ta thigh'er tolai haat diye tule, amar pichon'e dariye nijer oita, amar gud'e dhukiye dilo ek barei. Ektu betha lagleo, pore or thap khete bhalo lege chilo, amake prai 10 minute oi bhabei jore jore pichon theke kore gelo Avi. Or proti ta thape amar dud duto aro chepe jache kanche ar amar fola pet ta to sete ache janlai, bhalo hoyechilo, tokhon train cholchilo oto speed'e, jodi kono station'e dariye thakto, tahole kelenkari hoye jeto, Rajdhani te onek kom stop emniteo. Ami oi tuku shomai du bar rosh chere felechilam, kintu ek paa'e oi bhabe beshi khun darate parlam na, Avi ke bolte, Avi nijer bara ta bar kore nilo, ar amake nicher seat'e haath diye, floor'e hamaguri dite bollo, ami tai korlam, Avi ei bar nichu hoye boshe, abar amar gud ta chatlo ektu jib dhukiye dhukiye, amar khub bhalo lage jokhon, amake korar por, Avi amar futo gulo chate. Amar to mone hochilo, or mukhei ami abar rosh ta fele debo. Kintu O hotat gud theke nijer mukh ta tule amar pichon'er futo te jeeb ta dhukiye thutu dhukiye dilo. Ami bujhte pere gechi O ei bar amar pichone dhokabe. Tarpor aste aste kore or bara ta chepe chepe amar pod'er futo te dhukiye dilo, tarpor amar pithe eliye pore, amar pithe kiss korte korte, pod'e thapate thaklo. Amar kaan'er pata ta ektu kamre bollo, 'sona langta Jethi amar, tomake aaj pet kore debo sona, tarpor jokhon tomar pet ta fule jabe, tomake langto kore tomar pod fatabo. Tumi sudhu amar magi hobe Jethi. Ki go nebe to amar bacha. Tana 1.5 bochor tomake chudchi, tumi ekhono keno bacha nicho na go, bolo na, aaj tomar pet'e bacha debo Sona ?', O kotha bolte bolte, amake shomane thapiye gelo. Ami or kotha sune aro utejito hoye giye, oke aro jore korte bolchilam, ar O nijer haat duto diye amar dud duto chotkate shuru korlo, prochondo bhalo lagchilo, tarpor amar dan bogol'er pash ta kamre diye, gatiye gatiye thapate thaklo, ami bujhe gechilam, or maal porbe, kintu ami ota gud'e nite cheye chilam, tai Oke pacha diye thele shoriye, ghure boshe porechilam floor'e. O bujhte pare ni, bepar ta ki holo, khub rege gechilo, ar chotfot korchilo, amake gal diye bollo, 'Ki korli eta magi, toke aaj sara raat langto kore chudbo dekhbi, kaal ar haante parbi na sali, amar maal ta felte dili na keno'. Ami amar saya ta diye, or bara ta puche dilam, ar oke bolechilam, 'Sona tumi amake sara raat sara din langto kore chodo, ami ki baron korechi tomake kintu, tumi to bolle aaj amar pet korbe, tai maal ta gud'er bhitore dhalo, pod'e maal dile bacha hobe na. Koto bar amar period miss korechi got 1.5 bochore, seta amar nijer'o mone nei. Du mash age to gyni'r kache giye abort korte holo, 3 din pet betha chilo mone ache. Amar boyosh ar nei bacha neowar, onek complication hoi eto buro boyosh'e pregnant hole, ei tai mone hoi amar sesh bochor bacha neowar, porer bochor theke ar hoito hobe na. Tai tomar kothai ami sesh ekbar chesta korbo, aaj tumi shob maal amar gud'ei felo, tumi condom gulo enecho to. Pichon'e korte hole, condom pore dhukiyo tate tomar bara ta nongra hobe na ar tumi pichone theke gud'e dhukiye dite parbe condom ta khulei, tobe maal porar shomai hole, condom ta khule amar gud'e dhukiye felo. Amake tomar Jethu'o kono din train'e kore ni go. Tai aaj ami tomar shob kotha shunbo sona, dao tomar bara ta ektu bhalo kore puche di, amar pod'er gu jeno na lege thake, gud'e oi nongra bara dhokale infection hoye jabe'. Avi sune, or nongra bara ta amar mukhe dhukiye diye bollo ami jeno chushe porishkar kori. Jodio ami saya diye shob ta puche niyechilam, tao ektu paikhana'r gondho chilo, tao ami chushe porishkar kore diye chilam. Ami chuschi lam or bara ta mukhe niye, ar o bollo, 'coupe'e tomar gu'er gondho beroche olpo olpo, nischoi ektu hege cho, oi kapor chera gulo ante bolechilam, enecho, ota diye floor ta porishkar kore diyo, pod ta mucho na, aro chudbo tomai, oi bhabei. Aaj sara raat hobe Jethi, amar jibone prothom 1st class'er chodon, nao nao otho eibar', Or bara ta shokto hoye fule jachilo, ar Avi rege nijer bara ta amar mukh theke bar kore, amar chul dhore tene tule, amake lower berth'e thele fele, amar upor uthe, amar paa fank kore, amar gud'e nijer bara ta chepe dhukiye, samne jhuke, amar gaal ta ek haate dhore, nichu hoye jhuke, amar thote kiss korlo, amar thot kamre, jeeb dhukiye amar thot chush chilo, ar gatiye gatiye amake chude gelo, ami chechateo parchilam na, Avi amar thot chushchilo, amar jeeb chushchilo, tarpor amar upor shuye pore, amar thot'e kiss korte korte, du haat diye, amar duto dud chepe dhore amake chude gelo. Ami jibon'e oi rokom sukh pai ni. Ami nije ke shamlate pari ni, Avi'r pithe haat diye oke amar buke chepe dhore, ek bar rosh fele dilam. Kintu Avi thamlo na. Onek khun pore, amar thot ta charlo, ami mukh khule nishaash nichilam. Avi amar haat duto nijer pith theke chariye, amar mathar upor tene dhorlo, tarpor amar bogol duto eke eke, chuste shuru korlo. Ami joto ta kom hoi, chechalam. Karon beshi jore chechale, coupe'r baire aowaj jabe. Ami ar na pere Avi'r kande kamre, abar amar rosh chere chilam. Avi Kamore bodhoi ektu betha peye chilo, tai ami kamor ta charar por, matha nichu kortei, Or daan haat diye, amar baan pacha'r side'e koshiye chor mere chilo. Ami betha peleo, or thape prochondo moja pachilam. Tai ami Avi'r matha ta dhore, amar ekta dud or mukhe thele dhukiye diyechilam, ar amar paa duto or pacha'r upor chepe, oke tene tene amar bhitore nichilam. Avi oi bhabei amake thap diye gelo aro du minute. Tarpor amar dud ta mukh theke bar kore, abar amai kiss korlo jeeb dhukiye diye amar mukher bhitore, ar tar sathe sathei amar gud'e gatiye gatiye 2 minute thapalo, ami pagoler moton korte korte, or pithe komore, emon ki or pachai haat buliye, nokh diye khamche tene dhore roilam, Avi ar thakte pare ni. Puro maal ta amar gud'er ekdom bhitore fele, pore gelo amar buker upor. Jani na koto khun oi bhabe eksathe du jone'e langto hoye shuye chilam kombol gaye diye. Mone holo train ta jeno thamlo, Avi ektu nore, amar upor theke uth te", Jaah, ar kono continuation page nei. Shit, baki shob page gulo to onno date'er, ar yellow page ar nei. Tobe Maa prothom prothom eto bhalobashto Avi ke, sala suor ta, ei bhabe amar Maa ke bhog korechilo, Or barota bajabo. Ar koek ghonta. Ami garage'er door ta khule baire giye dekhlam, flame onekta kome gache, puro tai pure gache, ami haat'er page gulo or bhitore fele ditei shonge shonge dau dau kore jole uthlo. Ami garage'er door bondho kore, abar bhitore eshe aro diary nite jabo, tokhon amar phone bajlo, dekhi Maa'er phone, Ore Baba, prai 10:12pm, eto raat hoye gelo. Jai hok, Phone ta receive korte jabo, call ta cut hoye gelo. Ami Call back korlam Maa ke, diary'r page'er obhigotta porar por amar khub raag hochilo, ami call kore nijer emotion control na korte pere chechiye bole fellam, "bolo, ki hoyeche, phone korcho keno ?", Maa kemon jeno shocked hoye bollo, "ei Babu, ki hoyeche re, tor ki mood off kono karon'e, ei bhabe kotha bolchish keno re". Ami rege uttor dilam, "ami Babu na, oi rascal take last warning diyechi, joto din sunbe, benche thakbe, nahole tomar Avi'r moton obostha korbo", Maa ekdom aatke uthe bollo, "Babu ke warning mane, ki hoyeche, ar amar Avi mane[Maa ektu regei bollo], tui ki bolte chaichish, ar Avi'r ki hoyeche, ki korechish oke". Ami bollam, "Babu ke sudhu warning diyechi, karon O amar nijer Mashi'r chele. Ar ami Avi'r bepare ja bolchi tumi seta khub bhalo kore jano, Oi rascal tar permanent beboshta kore felechi. Onek to holo, tumi to nijei bipode porechile, ar ek du din, tarpor breaking news asbe, keno Avi tomake call koreni ei ko din'e, Kotha bolo na ekhon tomra ?". Maa'er gola kemon bhenge gelo mone hoi, bollo "tui ei bhabe keno bolchish re Raju, tui ki korechish[bole kemon kende fello], Avi keno amake call korbe, tora jaowar por theke oi Avi ar amake call korena. Ar ami to toke kotha diyechilam, or sathe ami ar kono joga jog ba somporko rakhbo na, ami tai korechi. Ar tui aaj amai ei bhabe bolchish[bole kandte thaklo]", ami ei bar kheyal korlam, past'er lekha kichu kotha pore, ami present'e amar nijer Maa'er sathe ei bhabe behave korchi, eta bhul. Maa past'e bhul koreche, eto din pore seta sudhrate chaiche, ar ami take kotha sonachi. Ami Maa ke eto bhalobashi, tobu keno ami ei bhabe kotha bolchi, Ami matha thanda kore Maa ke bollam, "Maa tumi tomar kotha rekhecho, ei bar amar pala, Amio to tomake kotha diyechilam, je Ami shob theek kore debo. Tai korchi, tumi chinta koro na, tomake ar keu bhoi dekhate parbe na kono din, ar keu thokateo parbe na. Ami achi tomar sathe shob shomai, tumi kendo na. Ami jaa korchi, tate tomar kono khoti hobe na, tumi chinta koro na, ar age kanna bondho koro. Ei bar ektu kanna thamao please Maa[Maa dekhlam ekhon chup koreche]. Ami onek agei aaj kheye niyechi, hospital theke firei. Tumi kheyecho ? Dida kemon ache aaj ?", Maa ektu normal sound kore bollo, "tui sotti bolchish, ar kono problem hobe na, tui ki kore janli amar kono problem hoyechilo Avi'r jonno. Ami to toke boli ni ekhono kichui, Tui ki kore janli re, bol na", ami Maa ke shanto kore bollam, "Maa tumi jodi amake ektu'o bishash koro, tahole ektu dhoirjo dhoro, ami shob bolbo shomai hole, age shob theek kore ni edike. Tarpor tomar shob uttor debo. Ar tomar O to onek kichu bolar ache amai, du tin bar bolechile, mone ache. Acha se shob kotha thak, age bolo dinner korecho, onek raat hoye gache, ar Dida aaj kemon ache ?". Maa ektu shosti pelo bodhoi amar kothai, "Tui amar shob re Baba, toke bishash korbo na to kake korbo. Tor jokhon monehobe bolish, ami ar jiggesh korbo na. Tobe, etao theek bolechish, amar toke onek kichu khule bolar ache, jani na tui amar shob kotha shune, amar sathe ar kono shomporko rakhbi ki na, jodio ekhon mone hoche, tui bodhoi shob ta janish, tobu ami nije theke shob bolbo toke. Tui kheyechish ki na jene ami ki kore khai bolto, tui kheyechish bolli jodio. Ami ei bar khabo, jani na ki koreche tor Boro Mami, Maa'er shorir ta bhalo nei re, bujhte parchi na, Bhai to bolche tana ek mash ei bhabei jache, ek din bhalo arek din kharap. Char, tui shuye por tahole, ami khete jai". Bole ami Maa ke goodnight bole call ta cut kore dilam. Uff Babah, amake aro shonjoto hote hobe, bohu bochor age Maa ki koreche, seta niye ami boshe theke ki labh. Maa to amari, tar bhul shudre deowar daito tao amari. Baire brishti ta mone hoi ektu komlo, aowaj ta ar serokom hoche na, jah brishti bondho hoye gele, ami diary porabo ki kore, eto smoke to dur dur theke dekha jabe. Shit, ami phone pocket'e dhukiye, onek gulo diary stack kore, du haate tule abar garage'e gelam, abar ghore eshe aro kota diary niye gelam, 3 bar por por giye, onek gulo kore diary ene garage'e joro kore, tarpor se gulor page chire ekta side'e joro korlam. Abar phone bajlo, dekhi amar Bengaluru'r friend. Receive korlam call ta Hello bole, ar speaker'e phone ta diye, ekta stool'er upore rekhe, du haate kore diary'r page chirchilam. O bollo, "ki re bhai, tui call korli na to, security officer jai ni Kolkata te, oi scoundrel take arrest korte ? Ami to bhablam tui bodhoi bhule gechish tai update nite call korlam". Ami bollam, "bhai kichu hole to call korbo, keu ashe ni aaj obdi, hoito kaal asbe, dekh eta interstate issue, tai investigate korar alada permission lage, warrant issue holeo, aro onek diplomatic problem thake state wise. Kichu holei, ami toke janabo, tui chinta korish na, dekh amader kaaj ekhon sesh, ei bar security officer or band bajabe. Tui shuye por, onek raat holo, ami toke pore call korbo. Ok", O bollo, "dhur bhai, joto khun na oi sala ta arrest hoche, amar ghum asbe na. Tui mone hoi khub besto. Theek ache, ami beshi kichu bolbo na ekhon, rakhlam tahole. O acha, shon, bon tor sathe kotha bolbe ektu, mane ekhuni na, pore kono ekta time'e", ki or bon amar sathe keno kotha bolbe, abar ki holo, ami jiggesh korlam oke, "keno re, bon amar sathe ki bepare kotha bolbe, kichu technical help lagbe naki, ami joto dur jani, O to SAP'er kaaj kore tor office'e tai na ? Dekh amar specific kono idea nei SAP niye, but generalised problem hole, I can surely help", O bollo, "dhur baba, technical problem na re bhai, ami oke shob ta bole diyechi, je tui oi Avi'r laptop'e or video dekhe amake inform korechili, tai to security officer case ta korlam. Tai bon toke thanks bolte chai. Tui bolish, kobe free thakbi, ami or sathe kotha boliye debo toke", ami abar kono notun jhamelai porte chai na, karon bon jodi video niye kono proshno kore, ami to lojjai kichu bolte parbo na, shit, ami oke bollam, "dekh bhai, kaaj ta hok age, ar bon'er thanks bolar moton kichu korini ami, tai bon ke kichu bolte hobe na. Please, I insist. Tui oke bole dish, amio to or Dada'r moton'i na, Dada ke ki Bon kono din thanks bole. Tui char ei shob, ami ektu busy ekhon, tui jah giye ghuma. Ami kaal call korbo toke, Goodnight", O goodnight bole call cut kore dilo. Ami abar diary'r page cherate mon dilam. Prai 30 minute laglo, ami 48 ta diary'r page chire flechi. Garage'er door ta khule dekhi, ager agun ta puro nibhe gache, ar brishti tao onek kome gache, ekhon jhir jhir kore porche, ami ar deri na kore, shob chera page gulo oi bricks'er furnace'er modhe chepe chepe dhokate thaklam, tarpor garage'er bhitorer jerry can theke petrol choralam, page gulor opor, tarpor matchstick jele agun lagiye dilam. Dau dau kore jolte shuru korlo, Ami abar ghore diye, prai 10-12 diary niye eshe, page chirte thaklam, kichu khun pore, agun ta ektu kome ashchilo, ami notun chera page gulo aguner upor diye, abar ektu petrol dhallam, dekhlam abar dau dau kore jolte shuru hoyeche, but ekhon kalo mota hoye dhowa, uporer dike ure jache, jhir jhire brishti te smoke atkache na. Shit shit shit, tarmane ami aaj raat'e ar beshi page porate parbo na. ekhono onek boshta baki, ekta boshtai puro sesh hoi ni ekhono, onek diary pore ache ghore. Ami garage'er door ta bondho kore, bhitore kitchen'e eshe, ektu jol khelam. Tarpor wall clock'e dekhi almost 11:30pm. Ami dining'e ektu boshe, bhablam je Avi jodi kaal arrest hoi, ami kintu Kaku ke hospital'e janabo, Oi loktake ondho kare rakhbo na, puro bepar tai janabo. Karon, ami ekhon bujhte parchi, Kaku hoito ar beshi din nei, loktar kichu hoye jaowar age, tar janar odhikar ache, tar chele kon pothe cholche. Ghorite almost 12:00 am, ami ekbar garage'er pichone'er door ta khule dekhlam, agun ta nibhe gache, ar bhitore puro chai, tobe ekhono halka halka dhowa beroche, hoito shobe nibheche agun ta. Ami check kore, garage'er door ta bhitore theke bondho kore, lock kore, kitchen'e eshe, aro ektu jol kheye, amar room'e gelam ghumate.